November Update

Blog Entry

I haven't really had much going on as of late, but I figured an update was in order.

Lady Bits Warning...













My LS is under control. That's the only good news. The rest of it is that my skin has been under siege for so long that now I am dealing with muscles not doing as they ought, and my entrance has become so tight that trying to get anything in there tears the skin in front and leaves me hurting for days.

Things have become so drastic that my doctor is asking if I have difficulty going to the loo yet, because that's next if I don't get this fixed.

My options at the current moment are two: I can either fight this thing and tear myself open every couple of days for the next few months, hoping that the skin doesn't permanently scar and that I can eventually get it loose enough that it doesn't tear anymore (wishful thinking), or I can have surgery where they do that for me (I was told it's extremely painful.)

I chose the first option for the moment. If I need surgery, I'd rather it be as a last resort. I'm not my grandmother, my uncle, or my father. I'm going to do all I can do to fix this problem at home before I let someone near me with a scalpel. Besides, surgery would prevent me from going to work for at least a week...and YOU try explaining to your director exactly what you just had done and where in a delicate fashion without actually telling him. Yeah, not wanting to go there unless I have to.

She recommended that I see a specialist in Ann Arbor, and I am working on getting that set up. It's going to be summer before I go, but you know me-plan a thousand years in advance.

I've done one treatment since I've seen her, and I'm probably going to do another on Sunday night or Monday. I hate doing this to myself (anyone would) but I have run out of options.

Meanwhile.

Arrow is doing it again. They love taking the last two minutes of an episode and throwing a curveball at you...and then they LEAVE YOU TO ROT FOR A WEEK. They did that all last year, and they pulled it again this week. It was mean and underhanded, and I will watch again next week because I can't STAND not knowing (and I really love it when they do it; don't listen to me.)

Writing has been really hard lately. Don't know why-my attention span is all over the map. I think I actually have to bloody get some focus or something.

Work is actually really good. I just got my first evaluation and I am doing well. One plus in a sea of negatives.

Very tired and going to sign off, seeing as no writing is getting done tonight.

Ta, y'all.

Bec