Having A Frustrating Day

(Warning-I talk about lady bits here. Look away if you don't want to know.)

Having a frustrating day today. The puppy won't go down for a nap, I feel awful, and today was the day that I had to (look away now if you're squeamish) use my vaginal dilators to try and push my muscles to admit anything more than a finger (I try to do it every other day.) It's actually medically necessary because I can't have a pelvic exam until I make some room for the speculum. Now I tore just inside my front door thanks to the steroid cream for the lichensclerosis thinning the skin and that means I have to refrain from using the dilators until my skin heals...meaning I lose days that I could be attempting to get the stupid, stupid, stupid second-smallest dilator more than halfway up inside myself.

I am very tired and frustrated and I have an appointment on the 29th, and she's expecting progress. She's not going to get it. I have tried everything, but since I was lying on the bedroom floor crying my eyes out from frustration and pain today, I don't think we're going to make much progress without outside help.

AUGH!

I have to go meet Mum down at the bottom of the driveway, so talk to you later.

Ta,
Bec