Solving the Problem

Definitely not better. I'm starting to want to miser the steroids so that I can function. I run out Wednesday morning and honestly I'm dreading it. What am I supposed to do then?

This is truly, honestly ridiculous. I shouldn't have to stash pills so that I can finish homework and things. Did anyone actually think this would work?

Sigh. I already sent a message to Duke requesting another appointment-it doesn't matter that my results haven't come in yet. I need to see someone even if the X-rays and all have no evidence of anything going on. Something's up. My arm is a mess. This needs fixing so that I can get my degree and go somewhere else. Give me the tough meds so that this will go back under to where it was for another three years (forever would be better but I can hope for a couple of years of peace, eh?)

I just wish someone would take me seriously on this. I'm not too damn young to have arthritis because I HAVE IT NOW. While they're screwing around with blood tests and X-rays and handing me steroids, I am living with the knowledge that I'm going to be in as much pain on Thursday morning this week as I was last week. Joy.

There just ain't no way to put a positive spin on this. I'm of half a mind to leave a message with Dr. Bocoun's nurse and have them call her or her call them. She knows me, she's treated me, and she can get them on the same stupid page already.

I'm prepared to carry my medical records with me all week in preparation for their phone call saying they can get me in. This cannot wait. I need help and they're giving me steroids to shut me up.

Meanwhile, I found an offer today that intrigued me. The University of Lancashire (sort of above Wales, south of Manchester) is offering a degree if someone does research at their university...an English degree. I'd have the equivalent of an MFA and they'd pay for it if I would do research.

I'm going to go for it; why the heck not? I wasn't expecting to get another degree but hell, I would if it was in English, in a topic I would like to research, and paid for. I could probably even hook up with their academic library for a position if there was an open spot.

I just hope I'll be well enough to go.

Ta,
Bec