It may seem like a form of self-torture (and certainly the way I'm putting up with this medication change would say something about it) but I went down one prednisone pill a day earlier than I was supposed to.
I could go faster than this, you know. Could be down to half a pill in a couple of days probably without any ill effects. When I fell from 8 to 4 it didn't make me sick or anything. What's the big difference between 2 and 1, then?
I don't know why I haven't done it yet. I could end this in a week by whacking down the dose steadily over the next couple of days. Probably because I've been through enough hell already and increasing my pain isn't exactly what I want to do.
BUT that IS what the doctor is trying to do-put me in enough misery and swelling to make this thing appear in my joints again. So why aren't we doing it faster?
I'd be going against doctor's orders if I did, but is it wrong of me to do that when I want to solve this problem as fast as possible? Isn't the idea to get me to swell up? Do I want to go through two weeks of slow hell or one week of fast hell?
The question is: Does he want to put me through constant and increasing pain for the next two or three weeks or would he want me in there next Friday crying because I can't move either hand without pain and suffering?
Today's been hard already with two pills. I'll wait another day at least if I'm going to drop it to one, and that's only after I talk with his nurse tomorrow morning.
I just want to be done already. Today I took four ibuprofen to combat the pain and they didn't get all of it, either. What the heck am I going to be like when I'm on no prednisone at all anymore?
TWO DAYS TILL THE RETURN OF ROSE!
Ta,
Bec
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